For the longest time, I would not touch them. No matter if they were school books, or books people get me as gifts. It was not until the summer after fifth grade, when I took a speed reading class, when I really looked into reading. After that summer, I started reading more and more until I was constantly carrying a book with me everywhere I go. It wasn’t until high school that I started noticing patterns or groups of books that would capture my interest at different parts of my life. Depending on what kind of book it is, I realized that I should just buy it from the bookstore if possible. There is a list of books that I keep rereading time and time again.Sometimes I would reread the whole book, and other times, just certain passages of the book.
Thinking back to some of the unofficial groups I categorized books into, they change when my mood or stress change. The quick change does not really faze me because I already know how the book ends most of the time. But it is really annoying when it is a book I am reading for the first time. At first, I did not really understand why it happens. When I am really interested in a book, it seems like the pages just fly through, and after an hour or so, I am almost or totally done with a book. But when once my interest shifts, and I continue with the book, the story seems to stretch out, and the plot seems really boring all of a sudden.
Looking back to instances like that, I can see how reality came in and changed my overall mood all of a sudden. Some of the shifts were easy to see, and realize the reason for the sudden change, but most of time, I have to stop and really think before I am able to identify why I want to read that one group of books all of a sudden. The most obvious one comes out really strong during finals, midterms, or when school just seems really difficult for me, I would tend to read books where the main character has to deal with school, factors the author decides to write about, and finally triumphs at the end of the book or series. To me, the unconscious message is that I can overcome the obstacle, and finish my academic work, just like the characters in the book. While not all of changes can be identified like that, they are all really similar in what they convey to me unconsciously.
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